Take A Chance On Me

Weight: 228.6lbs (0) (yesterday it was 227.6lbs)

I've had an interesting week so far...
On Sunday, I found out that my job was actually offered to someone else first! Although that person did not pass the certification exam (i.e. they can't work), so I got it instead. That knowledge really ruined the excitement of the job for me... being in second place is like being the Queen of the Losers dammit. But truly I can't complain too much because now the anxiety and pressure of starting a real-life job has somewhat lifted allowing me to sleep through the night. Hell... they must not expect that much from their second choice if their first choice failed their licencing exam...

Seriously, the insomnia (or overactive brain disease, i.e. worrywort) has kept me from sleeping until 3am resulting in me undergoing the much less comfortable 'couch-sleeping.' It also doesn't help that I would then wake up at 10am, when I should be trying to teach myself how to wake up at 6. Life is hard.

Sunday I was also supposed to run and play two games of softball, but I was tired. The night before I had gone out to the bar with a friend and ended up sleeping on my dad's couch (I hate making up the spare bed that much) and had to drive back home that morning. I didn't want to go outside and I definitely didn't want to run. So by procrastinating until the last moment, I didn't run, and hell I had two games (3hours) of softball to play anyway! But of course, on the way to softball it started to pour and lightning and thunder - games are off. Shit.
We went out for dinner instead (I found out the job news) and when I got home it was hours earlier than I had expected it to be. The guilt slowly set in for not running after all (and I would ruin my very perfect run of running every other day for two weeks). After very briefly considering and then immediately rejecting running in the torrential downpour, I eventually I got my ass up off the couch and went to the treadmill downstairs. I brought my computer down with me (had previously set up an episode of How I Met Your Mother to watch) and proceeded to run. It was a decent set-up... until the episode finished and I had nothing to look at. The treadmill faces a white wall, which is surprisingly quite headache-inducing to run towards. And it was hot - the sweat just stuck to every surface of my body. Ugh... but I did it. Total 5km and 4 of those were running. It made me appreciate outdoor running just so much more. One thing I think that tiny little plastic-smelling white-walled gym will be good for is free weights. They have a whole set down there, a pseudo-bench and some diagrams to tell you what to do. I couldn't ask for much more.

I don't really remember much of Monday, I think I sat on the couch all day and went through the thousands of pictures I have on my computer, choosing which ones to get printed. In every single one of my picture frames I have pictures that are over 5 years old - and a lot has happened in five years! (Two degrees, three big moves, home ownership, new friends, weight loss, weight gain, hair cut, hair grown, new family members... etc.)
 And oh yes... and there was some grocery shopping as well - the most important part of my day! I bought some turkey sausages, some tilapia (for the first time), fruits, veggies and lots of yogurt.

Yesterday was pretty great. I went for a run in the morning (another 5k!! + 2k walking) with the anticipation of my friend coming to visit in the early afternoon. We went to drop my pictures off to get printed, rented some really cheesy movies, picked up some snacks and laughed the afternoon away. Another friend was bored so she joined us in the evening for a bit of wine, a crappy horror movie and some grilled chicken pesto pasta salad. A lot of fun. After the chips and the Big Turk bites I ate, I was a little nervous for falling off the wagon (as well as gaining 5lbs today), but so far so good. I guess the running and the walk to the movie store really helped. And I'll just have to be especially diligent today to make sure I don't run to the convenience store for more chips today (my downfall).

So... decent week so far. I am trying to relax on my last week of freedom, but there are lots of little errands to fulfill before I am ready for next week... so laundry, health-record searching, cooking and cleaning will be on the agenda for today. (And obviously watching like 20 episodes of HIMYM...)